4.22.2009

praying today's psalm: psa 73


This is what the wicked are like—
Always carefree, they increase in wealth.
Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure;
In vain have I washed my hands in innocence.
All day long I have been plagued;
I have been punished every morning.
If I had said, “I will speak thus,”
I would have betrayed your children.
When I tried to understand all this,
It was oppressive to me
Till I entered the sanctuary of God;
Then I understood their final destiny.
Surely you place them on slippery ground;
You cast them down to ruin.
How suddenly are they destroyed,
Completely swept away by terrors!
As a dream when one awakes,
So when you arise, O Lord,
You will despise them as fantasies.

(Psa 73:12-20, NIV)

Father, it is tempting—the life without you. The life unconcerned with your will. The life unconcerned with what pleases or displeases you. The life unconcerned for others. The life without guilt, only pleasure, where whatever feels good should be and is done. It is tempting when people rise to the top. When they get ahead. When they are recognized and rewarded. When they are beloved by the people. Am I stupid to concern myself with what is right and not what is expedient? Am I foolish for trying to reign in my desires and not obeying them? Am I stupid to choose a path no one else is traveling? This is my struggle. But then I catch a just a brief glimpse of you and it seems silly. Then I witness their house of cards fall, and it makes sense. Amen Amen

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